“Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves."
~Henry David Thoreau
Everything about my future was ambiguously assumed. I would get into debt by going to college then I would be forced to get a job to pay off that debt while still getting into more and more debt by buying a house and a car. It seemed like a never-ending cycle that had no place for the possibility of a dream.
I want more—but not necessarily in the material sense of personal wealth and success. I want more out of life. I want a passion a conceptual dream that wouldn't let me sleep out of pure excitement. I want to spring out of bed in the morning rain or shine and have that zest for life that seemed so intrinsic in early childhood.
我们想要的更多——并不是对于个人财富和成功等物质性需求， 我们对于生活，想要更多。我想要热枕、有概念的梦想，让我不会空怀纯粹的兴奋入睡。 我希望能在早晨一跃起床，无论阳光普照还是刮风下雨，也能对生活充满热情，就像我们的童年时固有的一样。
We become so comfortable with the life that has been planned out for us by our parents teathers traditions and societal norms that we feel that it's stupid and unsafe to risk losing it for the small hope of achieving something that is more fulfilling.
"The policy of being to cautious is the greatest risk of all."~Jawaharlal Nehru
Taking a risk is still a risk. We can and will fail. Possibly many many many times. But that is want makes it exciting for me. That uncertainty can be viewed negatively or it can empower us.
Failing is what makes us grow it makes us stronger and more resilient to the aspects of life we have no control over. The fear of failure although is what makes us stagnant and sad. So even though I couldn't see the future as clearly as before I took the plunge in hopes that in the depths of fear and failure I would come out feeling more alive than ever before.
If you feel lost just take a deep breath and realize that being lost can be turning point of finding out who you truly are and what you truly want to do.
muck n. 淤泥：垃圾
dismiss vt. 解散：解雇
resilient adj. 弹回的，有弹力的
stagnant adj. 停滞的：不景气的